Can't Let Go

We watched Lars and the Real Girl tonight.  If you get why this may have been a little awkward, good for you!  I liked the part where the doctor tells the brother that Bianca is real, she is right out there.  The reason I liked this line was not for the obvious reason, it is because I have been reminded of the fact that whatever your day is, may not be your whole life, but it is real.  It is what is happening, it is real.  We have to make our situations better.  It is so hard to turn my frown upside down some days and that is fine.  But it ultimately means, I had a day that I let myself not feel rummy and furry.  Some days are like that.  I really want to feel furry more often.  I need to make it happen.

As you may have guessed, I feel out of sorts and out of time.  My voice seems to not be the necessity it once was.  I love you all and I love rum... but I am not what I once was, my old world has disappeared.   I feel like a lost monarch, Queen Aubrey's Kingdom doesn't exist anymore and I am failing at passing myself off as a commoner.  No one would believe I am one of them anyway, right?

Anyway, wish me luck!  I know I am wishing you the craziest, most drunken luck in the world.  I know you all have your strange journeys too. 

Kisses.